Reflections and 4 lessons I've learned
Growing up is a never ending process.
This past year we have all definitely had the chance to grow in different areas. Quarantine will do that to us. If this season of Covid-19 and quarantine has taught me anything, it’s that there are many places in the depths of my heart that aren’t as “pure” as I would hope them to be. There were and are certain entitlements, certain anxieties and certain faithlessness that I have had to contend with in these times.
A few years back I was lost. I had forgotten who I was, what made me the person I am. I forgot what I loved and what I needed. I was so consumed with trying to survive life that I wasn’t living life. I was overwhelmed with all that I thought I was suppose to do.
A Mother's Sacrifice, Work and Desire for Recognition
I sat at a conference unaware that I was about to be broken.I was pulled to go and pray with someone.I watched as others walked over for prayer. I knew I needed to get up, but I was scared.What was I going to say?I wasn’t even sure what I needed prayer for, but I needed something.I needed to be filled.To be emptied.To breathe.I needed restoration.
Repentance Leads to Restoration
Repentance begins in me.Those words have struck a chord in my heart for months now. I have chewed on them, cried out over them, searched and asked and wept.The things of this world, the ugliness and sin have left me broken and longing for Heaven. I couldn’t bear another worldly justification for sin, I couldn’t hear more hate filled words and lashings, I couldn’t watch one more abortion video.And then more…
5 Ways to Step out of the Boat
When God calls you out of the boat, you put your foot in the water and you walk.Why do you doubt?Why do I doubt?A few weeks ago I stepped out of the boat. I said yes to a desire…a dream.I knew the Lord was calling me and I had to follow.And it scared me. It scares me still.I’m not sure what scares me. The unknown, of course. The thought of failing…absolutely. The thought of succeeding…that too. The expectations? The work?The risk.
Kim Kardashian, Selfies and Our Need for Approval
k, so we have all seen it. That, um, vivacious picture that spilled into every news feed last week. The one you weren’t looking for, but it happened to pop up EVERYWHERE.Yeah, that one.It was trending everywhere. Articles have been written about it and because of it. Great articles about what to tell your teens about these pictures and what women should take from this. And I love each of these articles and there is so much good and truth in them but, I’m gonna be honest with you…In my opinion…Kim Kardashian isn’t really much different from the rest of us.
If:Gathering, God is Real...Then What?
If God is real, Then He will move in you, for you and through you.Last year I cried out to God to do something in my life. I was hopeless, passionless and for years moving in and our of the hills and valleys of depression.I was lost.God had called me to surrender everything. To stop with my formulas and my plans and my desires and give it all to Him.Surrender.And I was terrified.The phrase “What if” ruled my thoughts.I was a slave to “if.”What if I can’t do all you have called me to?What if I mess up?What if all of this is too hard?What if I fall on my face?What if I live my entire life restless, afraid and depressed?