Repentance begins in me.Those words have struck a chord in my heart for months now. I have chewed on them, cried out over them, searched and asked and wept.The things of this world, the ugliness and sin have left me broken and longing for Heaven. I couldn’t bear another worldly justification for sin, I couldn’t hear more hate filled words and lashings, I couldn’t watch one more abortion video.And then more…

My blogging break has come to an end and I’m excited to be back!I am refreshed and ready to put some words on the screen.This break was a bit unexpected, but I am glad it worked out well. Honestly, during this summer I found myself sad and my spirit heavy. There was and still is so much going on in this world that is very troublesome. Wars are being fought on every corner of the globe both physically and spiritually. My last post was a cry of my heart and I simply said all I could. I had to just take time to sit and pray and be still. Writing about life, motherhood and living out your callings seemed small amidst the chaos of this world.So I took a break. Cleared my head. Engaged in my other passions – Summertime and reading!

This year has been filled with an outpouring of God’s love on my life in ways I hadn't imagined or expected.He called me to step out of the boat and in many ways and in my obedience I have seen life flourish in my faith, my walk and in my daily life.These last few months I have been doing a lot of reflection over what was spoken to me during and after IF: Gathering. The Lord impressed upon me shortly after If that I needed to “get my house in order.” I’ll be honest, as soon as I felt those words in my spirit I immediately thought, “Oh my goodness, I’m going to die!”Yeah, I went there! Forget about trusting God and believing I am safe and well covered by God.After I finally got a hold of my imagination and started casting it out, I realized that God is preparing me for life, not death!Life abundant.

I’m spending a beautiful weekend on a beach in Florida. It’s chilly, for a cold front just came into the sunshine state, but even still, nothing beats the beach.I can hear the waves hit the shore and I see people waking on the sand. The water sparkles like chrystal and it’s blue waters goes beyond the eye can see into the horizon.I wonder, as I sit in the quiet of my room. My mind wanders and I wonder.All perspective is in my heart and minds eye. The beauty of life is striking and in the calm of the sea I can survey my life, past, present and future and I can wonder and know and believe.The Word teaches us the way we are to live, the truths we are to pursue, All we must stay away from and all we must seek and find.In the quiet reflections of this moment, I want to live for the right now. The moments of daily life; yes, even the monotonous and mundane, because after all this life that has come before, I have learned that the monotonous and mundane life is where grace is found. The quiet, daily living is where I come to serve and where I lose myself and become more like my Savior.

k, so we have all seen it. That, um, vivacious picture that spilled into every news feed last week. The one you weren’t looking for, but it happened to pop up EVERYWHERE.Yeah, that one.It was trending everywhere. Articles have been written about it and because of it. Great articles about what to tell your teens about these pictures and what women should take from this. And I love each of these articles and there is so much good and truth in them but, I’m gonna be honest with you…In my opinion…Kim Kardashian isn’t really much different from the rest of us.

I woke up tired. I went to bed the night before at 9:15. I haven’t done that since the 7th grade.Yet I still woke up tired.The weather is cold and gray today.The cloud that is following me is cold and gray.Sigh…On days like today It is hard to get out of bed.My flesh is fighting against all I need to do.My flesh is fighting against all I need to be.My flesh is fighting against the work I am called to do.