When Anxiety Rises, Only One Thing is Needed
It’s 4:30 a.m. The house is quiet. I roll out of bed and try to not wake up my husband. I turn on the shower, brush my teeth, pull my hair up in a bun so that it won’t get wet, step into the solace of the shower and let the water pour over me. I breathe in the steam and the scent of my almond milk soap.
I woke up with so much anxiousness today.
I woke up restless and fear was lurking in the dawn.
I couldn’t breathe. I could feel panic setting in and I knew I wasn’t okay.
My mind began to race. I thought I was delivered from anxiety Lord! I thought you had saved me from these fears. I was so confused. I felt broken. Again.
It had been years since the darkness covered me in such a way. It had been years since the looming black cloud had made its way into my life.
I refused to go back there.
I refused to lose myself, my faith or my hope.
I refused to pick up the chains of slavery, when I had been set free and delivered.